I was born in St. John's, Newfoundland, Canada. I became a U.S. citizen at the age of 5. I have no birth certificate, no visa, no documentation of any kind. To my disposal, that is. I cannot remember a time when I did NOT know I was adopted. My grandparents were kind enough to remind me far too often how I'm not "one of them".
Every child loves to hear the story of his/her birth. I was no exception. I would ask my Amother if she knew ANYTHING about my birth. Not to belabor the subject, (pun intended), she would go into great detail and effort making sure I knew few details, but was fully-aware of the many less favorable facts and aspects of the circumstances surrounding my conception and rejection. Briefly, she told me I was the result of an adulterous, drunken night between a Local woman, and an Ukrainian marine biologist. It just so happens, he sailed into-port, met Local Female Drunk, had his way, and because she was Catholic, she was "made" to keep the pregnancy. Romantic, isn't it? Each time I asked my second-mother about my first, I would be told (in not so many words) I would have been an abortion, if not for the Catholic Church. [Hold the applause for The Pope...]
Immediately after the Church Ordained birth, the miracle of life was wisked away to the local orphange. According to some, my "Mother" (can you all hear the pinched, strained ennunciation of that name?) wished to have nothing to do with me. I was left to live among many, many other unwanted bastards. Because of the very poor nature of Newfoundland, the babies of the orphanage were grossly neglected.
My Amother took great pride in telling her story.... how, upon bringing home her newly purchased baby, SHE discovered how poorly developed I was. My muscle-tone, and physical development was that of the newborn she truly wished to get. I was "the best of both worlds." I was an older baby, not too fragile and small; but small and petitie, with the same rudamentary skills and abilities of a newborn.
There was a neighbor who had a baby boy 1 month before I was born. Legend has it my Amother would spend much time with him, and watch carefully how that baby was growing and thriving. She had expected much of the same skills and size from me. "I could not believe how shocked I was when I held you." (Her words; her story.) Upon first meeting, I was a disappointment. "ALL you did was scream. Your skin was a mess with this terrible-looking rash. You would NOT eat, and your head was flat on one side. The pediatrician warned me, due to the neglect, you would most likely be retarded. I wanted to prove him wrong. Six months later, the dr could not believe his eyes... the dramatic change that took place. You had caught-up to, and even exceeded (the neighbor's boy) in gross & fine motor skills. Your appetite was insatiable, and you would go to person to person, just loving any bit of attention you could get."