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When does it pay to be a "good girl"?


I grew-up in a very old-world traditional family, where "good girls" don't behave in a way that would bring shame or embarrassment to the family name.

Oddly enough, I was birthed by a woman who, according to my amother, had no morals. It seems the only decent thing my mother did was not have an abortion.

It was so ingrained in me:  "Be good, or else".  My job was to be good, so I worked very hard to be as I was told.  There was so much fear in me... if I failed, what would that mean?  Would I be seen as the discarded trash my own mother became?  It didn't matter, my good-girl image got stained anyway.  There are those in this world who hate good girls.  Why?  I don't know.

As a good girl, I had to keep all these shames to myself.  Good girls don't start trouble.  Good girls don't make others question what the well-respected have been doing behind closed doors.  Good girls don't speak, they just smile and nod in full agreement, because it keeps the peace in a Very Good Family.

Can anyone tell me, when does it pay being a good girl?

Will it be this life-time, or will I have to wait for the next?

by Kerry on Sunday, 10 August 2008