Anger
Normal people tell me I should be grateful having been given a second chance, but I don't feel gratitude, I feel anger most of the time; anger towards the people who just fucked without thinking of the consequences and anger towards the people who so desperately wanted a baby they bought one. I am so friggin' pissed off, I need to vent every now and then and normal people just don't get it. They're just there to bug me. I thought other adoptees might get it so I wrote a couple of messages over at forums dot adoption dot com, but there I got banned by the taste police. They just wanna hear the happy sappy stories and not the gory details of adoption. They wanna hear of successful adoptees and loving parents who rescue innocent little lives. But the truth is: there is nothing innocent about us and our loving parents are just greedy bastards who had too much money in their pockets so they could buy what ever they wanted. Oh and a success, at the end of the day its just a performance well done, not an achievement made.