Not too long ago I discovered a sales-pitch found only in Adoptionland, and I openly admit, I find this pitch incredibly offensive, for reasons I will gladly explain later, if asked. For now, I wish to re-showcase the marketing tool used by a hotel in China and the toy company, Mattel. There is an exclusive give-away given only to adopters who choose to adopt from and stay in China. What's the "free" give-away? A white Barbie Doll, named,
I was watching a movie with my twins today. Readers need to understand, when it comes to spending time with my older kids, I struggle. Parenting/mommy-ing was much easier when my annoying, demanding heathens were newborns, or at the very least, much much younger, when their very simple basic needs, were very simple, basic, and easy.
<longing for for the long-gone 'easy' days... because the looks on their faces told me I was/am a good decent parent> coupled with <tired, frustrated, annoyed and really stressed-out sigh>
For decades I have been trying to "find myself", and as I am just weeks before the 40th anniversary of my entrance into this world, I think I am finally able to comfortably assign a word that best describes and defines all that has become of me. My roles and names have been many. I have been daughter, I have been student, I have been nurse, employee, wife and mother. I have been annoying little sister and anti-social neighbor. I have been drunk I have been whore, I have been the cause and reason behind a suddenly shut door.