Masha Allen: victim impact statement
My name is Masha Allen. I am 13 years old. When I was five years old, Matthew Mancuso, a millionaire who was a pedophile, adopted me from Russia. I was rescued almost three years ago when the FBI raided his home in a child pornography sting.
When I arrived at Matthew’s house, I was only five years old and didn’t know much English. I did know that he didn’t have a bedroom for me. Or a bed. Instead I slept with him in his bed for almost five years until I was ten years old. During that time Matthew made me have sex with him every day. He made me take showers with him and suck his penis. Sometimes he chained me in the basement and took pictures of me with dildos or dressed in a wedding gown. He would pretend to marry me and then make me have sex with him. There was oral sex, anal sex and sex toys. He did and made me do terrifying things when I was just five, six, seven, eight, nine and ten years old.
I can’t even remember all the abusive things he did to me. Unfortunately, though, I can’t forget because there are pictures of the abuse. Hundreds and hundreds of pictures of Matthew doing horrible things to me. There are pictures of me being forced to have sex at Disney World, outdoors, in cars, on motorcycles, in front of computers, in chains, with dildos stuck in me, from the front, from the back, in every and any way you can imagine. All of this and I was just a child.
Since he didn’t want me to grow up, he only let me eat a little bit of food – plain pasta, raw vegetables, no meat. Five years after I went to live with him I hadn’t gained much of weight. When the FBI found me I was ten years old but I only wore a size 6X.
The absolute worse thing about everything that happened to me was that Matthew put my pictures on the internet. He traded them with other people like baseball cards. What kind of people want to see pictures of a little girl being sexually abused? I was told that my pictures are the most popular on the internet. How can so many people enjoy the horrible things that happened to me? Now every day and everywhere I go I have to worry about who has seen the awful things that happened to me. And what do they think about me now? Do they want to hurt me? Or rape me? Or do they think I am bad, dirty, and ugly. I know that these pictures will never end and that the abuse from them will go on forever.
Usually when someone is raped and abused, the criminal goes to prison and the abuse ends. But since Matthew put these pictures on the Internet, my abuse is still going on. Anyone can see them. People ask for them and are still downloading them. Day after day. People want to see me being abused.
I want every single person who downloads my picture to go to jail and really be punished as much as possible. They are as bad as Matthew. They want to see me suffer. They want to see me starved and hurt and sad and abused. Child pornography is not a victimless crime. I am a victim and I still suffer everyday and every time someone sees me being abused.
I ask that you think about me and everything I have gone through when you sentence this person to prison. Think about the abuse I have endured and give this person a long long time to think about the evil he did by taking pleasure in my pain.