When does it pay to be a "good girl"?
I grew-up in a very old-world traditional family, where "good girls" don't behave in a way that would bring shame or embarrassment to the family name.
Oddly enough, I was birthed by a woman who, according to my amother, had no morals. It seems the only decent thing my mother did was not have an abortion.
It was so ingrained in me: "Be good, or else". My job was to be good, so I worked very hard to be as I was told. There was so much fear in me... if I failed, what would that mean? Would I be seen as the discarded trash my own mother became? It didn't matter, my good-girl image got stained anyway. There are those in this world who hate good girls. Why? I don't know.
As a good girl, I had to keep all these shames to myself. Good girls don't start trouble. Good girls don't make others question what the well-respected have been doing behind closed doors. Good girls don't speak, they just smile and nod in full agreement, because it keeps the peace in a Very Good Family.
Can anyone tell me, when does it pay being a good girl?
Will it be this life-time, or will I have to wait for the next?